When you’re recovering from a brain injury, everything can be really scary.
Or really funny.
You see, I have occasional blips of bad symptoms that make me think that God is never going to completely glue my grey matter back together. The symptoms can range from feeling like I have dementia to raging adrenaline to blurry vision to disorientation of time, space and people. Doesn’t last very long, but it keeps me wondering and waiting every day.
These symptoms are “normal” for someone in my situation, and I cry a lot.
But it’s also a big joke and I laugh a lot.
How Can You Laugh at a Time Like This?
Believe me, it sometimes feels that turning around the train of my thoughts is a Herculian effort. Staying positive and believing that God is using all of this for my good and His glory is really, really difficult.
And yet, this verse keeps coming back to me. And every time it makes me chuckle:
The Bible says in 1 Corinthians 1, verse 27,
“But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen.”
I think it’s absolutely hysterical that God can possibly take this lump of clay that is my brain and use it for His glory. It’s funny that while I’m doing the “fake it until you make it” thing, most people don’t notice. In fact, they tell me that they are blessed by me.
I blessed YOU? You’re the one who is healthy, normal, successful. How can I, in my goofy state, have done anything for you?
I haven’t. God has. HE has used my weakness–my “foolishness”–to show me and the world that He is sovereign. It makes no sense to me that my prayers, my encouragement of someone else, or my writing could possibly help someone.
In His hands, anything can be changed and used for good.
Look at all of the failures, knuckleheads, cheaters, liars, murderers, adulterers, etc. in the Bible. From Abraham in Genesis to John in Revelation, we read about people who were so imperfect, and yet God had a plan to use the good and the bad for His ULTIMATE good.
The world, and Satan himself, thought that Jesus was the ultimate failure. He came to earth to be king and He died a brutal death like a common criminal.
I Laugh Because I Think God Does
If we are indeed made in God’s image, don’t you think He laughs? I’m sure He does. Best of all, He has the LAST laugh.
In every single situation in the Bible, God has turned impossible things around in ways people never would have expected. Gideon led an army in triumph. Joseph made it from prison to leadership in Egypt. Daniel was saved from the mouths of lions. Job lost everything and then gained back twice what he lost.
In every single situation, Satan thought he won. He thought he won when David was tempted to murder and adultery. And the world thought so too when David’s son Absalom sought to kill him (well didn’t he deserve it for all that he did?). And yet David was called “a man after God’s own heart” and through his lineage, the Son of Man would be born.
And the ultimate laugh of all: when Jesus rose from the dead and defeated our greatest enemy–death. While the angels were singing on that Easter morning, I imagine God having the biggest belly laugh of all time. I don’t think it’s irreverent to say that. I think it’s awesome.
He is the ultimate victor. Nothing can stop what He plans to do. Not even a brain injury. Let Him use it in my life if it will shut up the enemy of my soul as people are blessed by whatever He can do through me for His glory and my good.
So I will laugh about how God is using my “foolishness” now–even through tears. And I will be laughing through eternally grateful tears on that wonderful day when He and I will sing, shout and snicker together.